Danielle

i wish i knew what i wanted to do with my life..i dont want to feel like im wasting time. or wasting time doing something i dont want to do.

i just want to be happy. and oddly enough it doesnt take that much.

its a weird feeling making decisions that actually carry some weight. sometimes i wish the only decision i made was "what do i want to wear today" or something so trivial. i miss being a kid. the real world scares me....or should i say being average or doing enough just to get by scares me.

i'll figure this shit out, i always do. im an optimist.

i may not know what i want exactly..but i know what i dont want.

its time for a clean up.


----im horrifically vague, but thats fine by me.

wow long time no update.

life is good...toronto is fun, workin is "fair" i realized i dont really want to be a make up artist anymore. i want to make money. and i'd rather do something more fulfilling. we'll see what happens in the future. none of the girls are that into their jobs....but we'll figure it all out.

its getting nicer out, the big park by our house is so sweet..i only walk on the side of the street closest to the park. the girls make fun of me. but what can i say, im a sucker for scenery.

im spending so much money on clothes...but whatever, what else am i gonna spend it on..my visa bill...HELL NAH.

lots of visitors in the next few months..plus a trip home in the summer. taking back sunday next week..alkaline trio in a few weeks..bloc party in the summer and i just saw franz ferdinand and death cab...we're going nuts with going to shows but a girl from PEI has to check this shit out.

steph i miss you and i cant wait til you come visit me.

the boy situation is not even fair at best...hahah how sad. but im rollin, ive been off the bottle for a few weeks but im bouncin back soon! i love the party


a few pics

my bday

the roomies


i later fell on lisa on the dancefloor...


gheyness

i can feel myself getting fatter..hahah SWEET JESUS NO!

gym tomorrow or im not gonna forgive myself for eating a million lindor chocolates.

i never update anymore...too lazy.

i feel pretty sick today, i ate chicken that i sorta left out on teh counter..hope thats not it. that and the fact i slept on the couch with no mouthguard and grinded my teeth so fucking bad that my face hurts today..sweet day so far.

three of my friends were here from home the last few days, it was great to see them. it doesnt feel like i even left home really, i havent had time to really miss people yet. but i wont be seeing anyone for 4-5 months cause thats when i'll be going home. i'll be feelin perhaps a little homesick by then, but not at all right now.

wow i got a 400.00 cell phone bill yesterday and almost lost my shit. they fucked up and cut it down by half..but sweet jesus i cant believe i racked it up that bad. i switched my plan. it really was horrible.

i need a second job im poor as ass. i hope erik moves in in a few weeks...i love our living arrangment right now as is, but it'd be cool to shake things up a bit and meet some more people.

i need to work out.
gaaaaaaah

happy valentines day everyone, i have a hot date with kim and some final destination 3 tonight
xoxo

an update..imagine!

so im leaving in T minus 5 days for Toronto. The nerves are setting in big time. I think i'll do fine though with whatever in the hell happens. Im optimistic, i worry about money..but who doesnt right. I need to get a good job, a job i want and will want to get up and go to everyday, that wont happen for awhile, but it's in the back of my mind for sure.

the first two months i get to Toronto ppl are visiting like crazy. I cant wait, it'll be some good times i tell ya.

all the goodbyes are not gonna be the coolest, i've already teared up once saying goodbye, the big ones are still to come.

this weekend will be some partying..erins birthday..and loads of packing.

i dont have much else to say. im bored of writing in this..haha

i definitely met my future husband last night.

bummer im leaving in two weeks...isnt that always "the way"

wow my christmas staff party was a total bust! haha i didnt have one ounce of fun. between the lurky guys i work with to the really trashy drunk girls looking to hook up with everyone i texted erin with a "im dying" and i bounced! holy what an eye opener. i sorta cant wait to be done of that place. even my manager showed up lookin like she was going to a ball, complete with some form of a dead animal as a "shawl" including tiny feet that dangled in the front AND THE HEAD in the back! jesus.......

anyways!

i want to save all my money the next few weeks and not party til everyone gets home Dec. 16. i think i can do it. i dont even mind not going out as long as people are still hangin out.

my roomies are in toronto this weekend scoping out apartments. i hope we get a sweet one in a good area. thats my goal.

christmas is coming up sooooo soon. the weeks are flying by. i want to really appreciate home and my family and friends this christmas. mainly because im leaving. but i'll miss them terribly when i leave. but ultimately im super excited to go.

looks like ive already got a date on the 22 of january in toronto to some "Monster Jam" hahah monster trucks and white trash, my favorite. its gonna be hilarious

peaaaaaaaas

Your Birthdate: March 11

Spiritual and thoughtful, you tend to take a step back from the world. You're very sensitive to what's going on around you, yet you remain calm. Although you are brilliant, it may take you a while to find your niche. Your creativity is supreme, but it sometimes makes it hard for you to get things done. Your strength: Your inner peace Your weakness: You get stuck in the clouds Your power color: Emerald Your power symbol: Leaf Your power month: November

im feelin slightly ill today...im sure it'll pass.

three days off in a row, how sweet is that! i picked up a few extra shifts next week so i hope i keep reeling in the money, my savings are not good..haha kinda scares me, but i should be able to have a little bit for the move..gah!

i've been havin sweet times lately. just great times with great friends.

i cut mike loose, he's just not my type. haha i barely gave it a chance, but im leavin soon anyway, so no need to get into anything until i get to TO

im gonna see walk the line tonight, soooooooooooooooo stoked. im supposed to take my dad but he doesnt want to go til next week, i think i'll go twice if i really like it, which i know i will!

hangin out with erin and jenn and the baby is now one of my favorite things to do. we just pass the baby around like a toy.,hahah im in love with him. almost makes me want to have one....except not! haha

as far as im concerned the weekend starts tomorrow.
excellent!

the devil's rejects is a decent movie, i liked it.

xo

i just had my little dinner date with mike.

there's somethign really cute about him. he's sooo polite which sort of freaks me out..haha i think cause im not used to it on account of all the people im friends with. its cool though.
there is something oddly feminine about him, like i could almost see how some people might think he was gay if they didnt know him..hahaha

..and i thought i liked tough guys....wait i still do, but im gonna check this one out

haha
peaaaaaace.

top 10 things that make you happy right now, and tag 5 people to do the same.

no particular order:

1. my friends
2. roadtrips
3. partying with my friends
4. moving to toronto
5. starting to workout again
6. walk the line coming out tomorrow
7. making money
8. going on dates
9. dancing
10. text messages

these people are tagged... ;)

steph
nick
scott
jesse
katie

things are going really good in my life right now, im pretty stoked on it. i've been really happy, optimistic and have just been having the best times with my friends...what more could i ask for?

a date perhaps

yeah thats happening tomorrow.

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i fucking hate working nights..12am every night..yeah thats awesome. ughhhhhhhhh

anyways, i put in my last day as december 30 so i dont get screwed over for new years. cause i would have. hopefully ill have a week or so to get my shit together to move to toronto with the girls. im gonna get a job with normal hours so i can have more of a life. we'll see what happens.

this dude has been calling me. not sure if i "like" him or not. kinda not. but i could hang out with him, i almost feel obligated..hahah im horrible.

lots of fun lately, more to come this weekend with a roadtrip to halifax with the girls. probably gonna be the last time im there before i move. so im gonna see a few ppl and say some goodbyes....

im tired
six hours
i can do this.

peace.

this weekend was fantastic.

friday we all dressed up for halloween and went to some parties at a few of our friends houses. i definitly had a sweet costume. murdered beauty queen style. we didnt make it out to the halloween pub at the university, but i definitly "slept" on a pool table and got home at 630am. work the next day was horrendous.

anyways, last night we partied some more and had the sweetest time ever. i scored two free drinks and some free pizza, i know how to work it. hahaha


group dinner at rum runners..you can barely see me! haha


im always caught mid laugh.


scott...was a tampon


probably the funniest costumes ever


saturday night..a little more subdued


welcoming the europeans..or something


such a fun weekend.

i graduated college yesterday...it was a cute, short little ceremony cause there was only two classes graduating at this time of year. it was nice.

i partied a bit last night with the peeps in my class, it was some good times. what was not a good time was colleen stepping on my foot with a spiked heel and my foot blowing up like i had a golf ball attached to it . wow.

im consistantly accident prone, and its always with my feet!

today i had to do a makeover on a woman that was 65. wow it sorta sucked..and by sorta i mean A LOT. she was so particular about everything and picked apart everything i did. it was giving me anxiety! she was a pretty lady. but sorry i cant hide the shadow under your nose so it doesnt look like you have a mustache, and you have really wrinkely eyes and i CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. anyways....fuck it killed me and i let it bother me all day for some reason. the lady was nice to me, but i could tell she wasnt a huge fan. if you want something done a certain way, do it yourself!

anyways,

tomorrow is my graduation, i went out to eat with mom, dad and nick tonight, they gave me an MP3 player and some cash, it was nice. i wish i had of been in a bit better mood, but it lifted slightly throughout the meal.

shopping with jenn today i saw a few things i want to buy. and im going to treat myself i think. i saw "the shirt of my dreams" and im gonna buy it tomorrow. i need boots badly...and to lose 15 pounds..hahah

my best friend sends me flowers!




you sly devil, i love you! hahah

<333

so i spent a million dollars at work tonight..some face masks..a face cream, foundation, eye pencil, and the newest lancome mascara..so stoked on it..haha im a huge fag.

work was great, a new girl i worked with is so great. she's cute and thinks im fun, so i automatically love her. doesnt take much really.

i didnt hit the gym today, im starting that monday, no partying for me this weekend, working til midnight sucks, but i save some cash...or not cause i spend it all at work

i got 1360.00 back from the student loan ppl for "expenses" from school..well i live at home and have no expenses, so im putting it all on my credit card. my visa will be PAID OFF..i cant fucking believe it. now i actually have a hope in hell of saving money to move. this is grand.

life's treating me alright.

tomorrow is my last day of school, i cant fucking believe it. one presentation..and one half assed project im throwing together and c'est fini.

my knees are getting bad i feel. they click now, and i feel when i start running again they're gonna get worse. but i dont want to stop running.

there are so many things i gotta get started on..work..the gym..saving money.

i just want to have the next three months to rule, and them im blowing this popsicle stand.

oh and steph i love you xoxoxoxooxox

i havent eaten this bad since i was like 12 years old. cookies for breakfast isnt the best thing going..i think i'll run tonight...i need it.

i've been at school since ten, havent done much of anything. this project will be done and finished as with this program by friday. i cant wait, now i just hope everything goes alright with my marks, and next week im laughin at graduation.

once im over things, i completely wash my hands of it. and i dont look back.

3 monthssssssssssssssssss